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| Love this group there are full of so much Asian cuteness
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| so my aunt got norwalk last week and i think i got it 2 days ago omg i didn't throw up but i almost did and it was like non stop crapping lol good times. but now that i can pass wind without shatting m'self it's a good day. i can't wait to graduate i grad at the end of April and will have my med lab assit certification yay.. lately i have studied a lot of mandarin; the more I study the language the more i love it. it has such a nice flow to it. i still will always learn japanese cause its my best language aside from English but i really want to be fluent in mandarin one day. here is a vid of my new fav mandarin singer she is from taiwan but she has really clear mandarin so i like it and her music is nice too.
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| It's funny i always say that i am going to post every day; however, i live a pretty boring life lol.
What is new with me? not too much starting on monday i start my week long practicum at the hospital which i am kinda nervous about cause my last day at the hospital was horrible. i just was parred up with the supervisor who is such a -insert bad word here- and she just misundersood every thing i said. Like i said i was off my game which she thought ment i was treating my time there like a game... and i would also make patients at ease by telling them that i had done over a hundred blood samples but she thought i was being overly confident but i wasn't like at all i just said that when patients where nervous cause i was a student. anyways lets just say it was an oil and water fantastic time and then to top it off at the end of it i slammed my head in a metal corner. so i broke down in her office while she went over everything with me. anyways thats all over and its fine but she sent a letter to my instructor about the day... that was yah special luckily i have a very nice instructor who understood me a lot so i was thankful for that, but she wants me to go back to the lady on monday and just explain that i am serious about everything.
so yah i wish i didn't have to see this lady again but i do and thats what is making me nervous. oh well now i have to study for a test, i wish i was a stronger person and could let things go and be more confident. but hopefully with time i will be. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| so i have not done a post in a bit
Life is pretty swell i am doing my MED LAB TECH ASSIST course and sofar so good i took blood with success on my second try and i scored 90% on my midterm. Andrew got a promotion at his job so we celebrated my good mark and his job with some sushi mmmm it was nice but i think it had msg in it cause i can't seem to stop drinking water today. along with my medical studies i am taking beginning Mandarin and Intermediate Japanese 日本語 and 汉语 my Chinese name is 麦力达(mai li da) so that is interesting cause when you learn Japanese they just run your name through Japanese phonetics but not with chinese i mean yah they could have writen Alexander as 亜力山大 but most chinese names are just 3 sylibolls first and last. anyways life is going great it will be me and andrews 2 year on 1st of oct so that is great can't believe it has been 2 years since i met him. yah not to much to report i think i am loosing weight ( i ahve been walking every day) and yah i found the most horrific vedeo today well it scared me maybe not everyone here watch. it is a commercial in jp
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| I feel a sense of change within me: not my normal worry/emo change but a positive happy one.
Andrew has moved out, we have not broken up we are just not living together anymore which is good because i feel like i have grown week, or moreover; lost a part of myself. I craved being in a relationship with a guy who was stable and a non druggie and not shallow ect ect ect
and i found that in Andrew, he is such a loving person. So i find it ironic that i got what a craved and longed for ( a steady relationship) but i lost the independent part of me i have become so co-dependent these days so andrew moving out will hopefully make me regain my independence and i really want to spend more time with my friends.
I can't wait for school to start...... less then a day i am becoming a medical lab tech assistant which is supper fun awsome. and the best part is that my friend Esther is going to be taking it with me. i will grad in jun. and i am also taking mandarin which is awsome because i have always wanted to learn that language and i know that there will be lots of Japanese students so i can practice my japanese aswell.
So this post is kinda not linear which is good because it is how i speak normally
i worked at KFC this summer it was An Experience which i needed.
when i got hired as a cook they didn't tell me what iw ould doing but i soon found out..
i remember my first shift where i got in the kitchen and hot to pop the kidneys out of the chickens.. a part of me told me to leave but i didn't because i felt like i needed to have a dirty humble job. so i was only a cook so inever talked to people which was nice because i didn't have to talk to people buying things AKA(people who think they own me) it was actuelly a nice job the boss was a dirty deusch but owo well. the chemecles in the food was a bit scary though because the 2nd ingred in the flour was msg and the first in the marinaid was msg so yah scary stuff.. i startede getting a really bad rash on my hands and one shift when i took my gloves off it hurt like a motha fucka and i walked to the clinic and the doctor told me that my skin was spliting so i was like oh thas nice lol so he gave me steroid cream and it went away i worked 3 more shifts and thats it. so it was a good experience to know what is like for a lot of people who do these dirty jobs..
well i am goint o go to school tomorrow and get all the free crap that they give away.
i hope i see some people i know there. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| so what is new me?
Not a whole lot...lol well there is some stuff
i find my relationship with Andrew becoming weaker and this makes me sad i am not sure if we are going to break up or not but what ever the outcome is i am sure i'll be fine. I feel really bad though because everytime i want to break up with him its over vein (vane? not sure which one there) reasons like i need more sex or i want a more fun boyfriend. He does everything big right it's just i dunno i hear a lot of my gay guy friends saying " yah we cut back our sex to 4 times a week its hard) 4 TIMES i would love to have that but i guess having a loting boyfriend makes up for it. i think if i was a lot older we would work great but being young and horny makes things difficult. In other non relationships new i now work at KFC...... it is an odd job indeed i thought the chicken would come all done up and we just had to put it in the fryer but no no we don't. i have to break up the bones in the thigh and squeez out the kidneys.. does this make me not want to eat chicken? yes and no i think over time i will have a harder time eating chicken but for now i am ok. i have been playing a lot of WoW lately and having a good time but i miss haning out with my friends. regardless of whether me and andrew break up i need to see my friends more. for the first time i am looking forward to school in september i can't wait. Once i am a Lab tech assistant i can make some good money for once. i found it odd but student loans won't cover my corse they say that the government will not cover the course... not sure why i think maybe they have a price limit like its pretty cheep for 10 months of schooling and maybe they dunno want to loan me money i can pay back right awaylol? anyways i think i want to play some zelda or somthing.. i can't wait for the new Half life game to come out.... i love those games. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I feel odd these days
i find that i just can't grow up, i try to find motivation inside of me but i can't.
I want to be all i can be but sometimes i just want to sleep forever. I feel guilty because my mom has worked so hard all of her life to give me a wonderful one. I really don't want to be on medication to handle depression i never wanted to. I also feel so bad that i can't find motivation and inspiration in my partner, although i am happy we are still together. i feel like i have lost who i once was. i can see the person i once was spilling down and devolving into nothingness. for ex
i loved music and still do and i try to sit and down and play the drums or piano but then this lazy Alex takes over and end up not. its like i am too lazy to follow my dreams even if there are right there for the picking. i don't know how i can fix it i think somtimes breaking up with andrew would do it but i know it wouldn't. arg i hate this why can't i go back to grade 8 when i was happy. but time doesn't allow me to do that and thinking it can or being lost in day dream fantacy is just a wast of time and life will pass me by. I also for the first time thought about what happens to me after i die, i dunno why but the question just never seemed important till now maybe cause i almost lost my mom. i could really use a late night walk with mark even though most of the time we talk about him i know that talking with him would make me feel better and give me some clarity. somtimes i wish that i wasn't in a relationship because i feel like i have lost some good friends because of it. maybe i should let myself make mistakes but most people learn from them i tend not to. maybe i should try drugs seems to help some people i have been such a boy scount all my life but for some reason i just can't let myself. i hope things clear up soon for me. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| so angry right now
i applied for a cool job at the composting centre in downtown and i forgot a cover letter so she asked me to email it to her and that did not work as a found out just right now so i probably wont get the job if i had gotten up this morning and checked my email non of this would have happend arg i hate this i really do. i hate myself more for letting this happen. i don't know why i thought writting this down would make things better but it was worth a shot. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| well i havn't done a post in a very long time.
I am doing quite well these days school is done yay and i got good grades i think my avarge is a B+ or so i wish i had done this well in high school but i am doing well now and that is all that matter. I am still with andrew it is about a year.5 for us and even though we do fight once in a while we always resolve things i think we will be together for a long time because of our communication. i just quit my job at blockbusters which is a good thing because ironically i was watching less movies while working there then before lol. So i am currently looking for another job at the moment i need to save up soem money for septermber because while i am taking my lab course mom says i can't work so i have to save up enough so i can give myself some money every month for a year. well anyways not too much to report now i am excited for mario kart wii. i had a wonderful day with kate the other day we went downtown and had logan and took pictures and then kate came over and we played wii and i htought her how to play mario 3 so she can get her video games skills up cause you have to start from somewhere. i am going to try and write more often i think. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| 今大学校がちょっと難しい
私は日本語を話して書くのが大好きだけどぜんぜん勉強しないだ
時々クラスに行っている
なんで。
well i have a lot of homework to do in the next 20 hours oh dear. i hate it how i left so much to do in the last moment. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | so i have decieded to post an entry every day or at least once a week cause even though i like doing journal entries at home on my computer this allows me to able to look back at the past year and see where i was at. so i am pretty sure i am going to give block busters my month notice and quit my co workers have just become too much and i need a better paying job for the summer. i got all excepted in my lab course and have a seat in the programme which is really awsome. i have been sliping with school lately do to work and me putting video games before school. but i am going to work so darn hard to get good marks and do well on all of my test these next couple of weeks gash darn it lol. i saw an amazing movie called Perhaps Love it is a truly great love story. it is in mandarin which i like so that adds to it.My moms health is doing great so i am really happy about that i am so grateful that i didn't loose her i don't know what i would have done if i had. anyways i have some english to do so i will make another entry tomrow hopefully. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | so life is good this term is finally over, i think i did good in all my classes i know i could have done better in chem but oh well bad work ethic i can't wait till this term coming cause i get to japanese YAY. My love life is going great me and andrew have been together well over a year now and i have to say he is the man for me. He is smart and loving and cute all at the same time and even though we do fight somtimes (like any other couple) our love for eachother is very strong. anyways before i get too gushy here, VIHA is 6weeks late in paying me for some work i did for them (NEVER DO CONTRACTED OUT WORK) i mean they never mess up on the amount i should get payed which is nice they just mess up on the recivle time. we got our christmas tree it is about 2metres lol my mom likes her trees and it is real and fantastic. i had a lovely evening with kara tonight it was awsome to see her. i love her so much. my mom made some tasty shortbread which i can't stop eating oh how i will gain wait this season. i am starting to get back into music i am going to learn all of the christmas songs on the piano for my family this year, and gong to set up my drum set.... In other video game related news since andrew has introduced me to the world and war craft i can't seem to stop playing it it is full of fun and amazment i mean i spend about 2 hours every playing it i think soon i may need an intervention though JKIJK. oh and my Wii rocks my socks (in a box with a fox who has chick-pox and talks) hard core. I need sleep ASAP | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | So is pent a good portion of today trying to find this nice lady named Shelly i met down in prism in the summer. She was born in Ontario and lives in Victoria with her dog and wears a straw hat avec rainbow and i think her dog collier. She is a queer woman who is a retired nurse. If anyone knows of her please tell me i lost her contact information and i want to get in contact with her. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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